I was so disheartened by the message about the death of a
friend's mom. I could almost taste again the stab of pain when almost six years
ago, I also lost my father.
Death is a hideous enemy. Nothing could fill the void in
one's heart brought by the death of loved ones. Years after still feels like
yesterday. More so when you knew that he/she suffered excruciating pain brought
by illness like cancer.
The paradoxical complexities of life are hard to grasp at
times. Conversely, it was barely six months ago when I too, was also diagnosed
with the Big C. I vividly remember that moment when in desperation I just
crossed my hands and wallowed in self-pity.
I was bereft with emotions specially when asked, "What
else I haven't done yet?", then I found myself amidst churning emotions
and then...nothing...just emptiness knowing that I have served my purpose
already.
Consequently, some welcome death as relief from agony. The
gust of wind that touched one's face was sort of an assertion that somewhere
out there our loved ones continue to live in a different realm...
Death is neither a grief nor a celebration. Life begins in
pain and accordingly it must also end the same way.
However, life's pain is evanescent. Each of us must have that
moment where everything will be left behind. It's like a dance where at the
final moment we knew the steps by heart lest we will be trounced by woe.
Then, we let ourselves be engulfed by the melody of music...
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What a nice blog!!!
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