I am sick…yeah,
right. I got infected with bugs.
My throat hurts, my
eyes are red and watery, my feet are cold and clammy and practically all the
cells of my body are throbbing with pain.
By mid- afternoon
yesterday, my fever was 39.5 degree Celsius that I felt like my skin was being
pierced with hot needles. I was reminded of the exact feelings I had right
after my surgery last June. When another bag of blood for transfusion was
attached to one of my IV’s, I felt like the pain sky rocketed when my fever
broke to 40 degree Celsius.
It was a long battle
with countless injections for skin tests and later on being administered with
antibiotics thru endless needle pricks. I was shaking uncontrollably that I
thought it would be my end already. Well, thankfully I survived.
My only consolation
yesterday was I didn’t go through the same torment with endless shots from
nurses and doctors. I wrapped myself with double comforter and took lots of
fluids to help my aching throat then finally I drifted off to sleep.
The fever was on and
off that I succumbed again to self- pitying.
After sleeping for
almost the whole afternoon, I woke up still feeling worst. My eyes were so red
that I got scared staring at them. The power of the almighty bugs…
When the girls
arrived from school, I could hardly talk because my voice sounded like a
croaking crow. Yeah, that bad.
I opted to stay in
the room and ate there my dinner. Well, I could hardly swallow the food.
Everything tasted like medicine…and I abhor it because it has been my companion
for many months now.
My whole system
crumbled that it feels like I’m falling again in a shady crater of pain and
agony. So bad…
Like a good patient
that I am, I avoided computer for as long as I could so as not to cause too
much strain with my red eyes. I was able to bear ignoring the computer only the
whole day yesterday and last night. That explains why I wasn't able to write
anything for the blog.
However, it seems
like the lure of computer is so strong that here I am again hitting the
keyboard with all my might.
I missed Friendster,
Blogspot, Bloglogs, Infowars, and other sites. So, I’m trying another
medication now…the “drugnet” of the cyberspace. Maybe it’ll do the magic of
healing.
Kidding aside, the
past days felt like a horrible nightmare. My whole body was aching and in deep
longing to be healed. In addition, the purplish bruise on my arm which was the
result of regular laboratory tests the other day was also shouting for my
attention.
I squirted fountain
of virus all over the room by endless sneezing. So you could just imagine how
painful my throat was with the efforts I needed to exert in spraying the power
of the bugs. They owe me a lot for this.
Getting sick usually
brings me this unspeakable desperation for being indisposed. I loath the
feeling of being unproductive…not that I am really prolific now. After all,
I’ve been out of work for many months already after getting seriously ill early
last year.
I hope the reign of
the bugs won’t last for long. I can only sustain their clout for a short time.
They didn’t give me a notice before invading my body…
Just like everything
that happened in my life, this illness is beyond my control. It only proves
that I am human…I can’t tell what will happen next in my future.
Let it be…the sun will shine soon and bath me with a new dawn of a
healthy life.
Hi there.
ReplyDeleteI hope and pray that you'll get well soon.
Keep strong. Get some rest and eat a balanced diet even though you feel week and the food does not taste good. Drink plenty of water. Relax.
Don't forget to pray. :-)